Vacation

Lyrics

[Intro: Jeannette Baker] I wish I could take a vacation from my mind! [Verse 1] I learned my morals from a cheater, a liar, and a deceiver Always seemed to forgive her, but never really believe her That's why I hook my speakers and wires to the receiver Tryna escape the fire and not be a vile creature Barely survive the 80's, a baby without a teacher Who's so materialistic, I'm always drivin' a Beamer Overachiеver, overseas smokin' reefеr But had a panic attack and thought it was a stroke or seizure I battled demons for all of the wrong reasons Fightin', cheatin', and swearin', instead of swearin' allegiance I only saw my father on the weekends And some special events, but my memory's out of sequence I learned to swim in the deep ends and mastered my defense But still crucify him when he repents My worse critic is livin' under this fitted Defeated fetal position, was sick but couldn't admit it Overthink, overanalyze, ruminate Fumin' with hate over these stupid mistakes The most self-loathin' member of the human race Need Professor X to try to control my mutant traits Back to square-one, life ain't fair, son Search for higher ground to try to shoot off this flare gun Maybe a ship will get me off of this place I'm always in my own head starin' off into space [Chorus: Jeanette Baker] I wish, I could take, a vacation, from my mind! I wish, I could take, a vacation, from my mind! [Verse 2] I had enough meds that never work, friends who end up jerks Supposedly famous, but I don't get all of the perks My heart's racing off of Ritalin, spiralin' Bring me to the ER, call the medics or firemen I feel panic like, shooters are firin' At me with accuracy of Boomer Esiason Boomers are retiring while I exist Check to Check A nervous wreck 'cause the future looks violent Nervous attachment, circuits are crashin' Searching facial features for a certain reaction Readin' too deep into nothin', it's straight buggin' But my brain stay buzzing like a circus attraction Losing my shit but on the surface, I'm laughin' And searchin' for anything that could serve as a distraction (Stop playin' with my mind!) Feelin' just like that line from Terror Fabulous ~ "Action" Relaxin', cool as a breeze through palm trees While I'm tryna get away from these fools and zombies I'm super paranoid, so the hammer is on me Tryna clear all my karma so spirits don't haunt me Back to home base, life ain't so safe I can't imagine tryna navigate it with no faith It's pure hell, too awful to face That's why I'm in my own head starin' off into space [Outro: Jeanette Baker] I wish, I could take, a vacation, from my mind! I wish, I could take, a vacation, from my mind! A vacaaaa...... mind!!! A vacaaaa...... mind!!! A vacaaaa...... mind!!!