Honest 2 God Tyshane/DSTL 1.0.mp3

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[Intro] Honest, uh, look [Verse 1] Honest moments, some days I'm too afraid to create 'Cause I'm fearful all my greatest ideas have gone to waste I know that if I would they would probably be good But who got time for being good when you wanna be great Been super critical, plus my heart growin' super cynical People hang around actin' like they super into you Meanwhile, all a scheme to see what they can get from you Prayers in these cab rides that became a ritual, uh I told God I wanna live for You, but It's hard to live righteous when it costs residual cuts And plus, for my faith, I face ridicule, but In light of that glory the comments all minuscule, uh And my wife feeling competition with my career But I'm feeling competition with every rapper I hear The day I stop doing this probably my biggest fear But she the only one to be there when nobody cared So my priorities change, who even keeping score in this game? The price of fame quite the chore to maintain Record execs they always wan' pour you champagne It all stop when the record sale reports ain't the same Who really love ya? Who really love ya? Who really love ya? Let me ask again, who really love ya enough to hug ya? And tell you when you actin' like a sucka, and never judge ya That's not rhetorical, give a call to whoever that is Say thanks for everything that they did Life is fragile, we here for a blink, then it end The definition of family the same for the friends The loyalty thicker than the blood that's under your skin [Break] Them honest moments Ha, how often do we have 'em? Real ones Can I have one? We goin' public with our highlights, uh Private with our sin, throwing up pictures at the party But not the one throwing up at the end, oh Lord [Verse 2] Honest moments, how often do we have 'em? Even with our closest, hard questions, hope that they never ask 'em Ironically, they feel the same, we both actin' I'm feelin' like a joke, that's why I try to keep 'em laughin' Crisis happen in my faith, I felt trapped in Didn't know if God was just something I imagined Meanwhile, people got questions, they askin' Me about Jesus, but I ain't got the answers, Sway It's crazy when you known for your faith You supposed to give it, but you never get grace So show up on stage, put on that face I'm just tryna hold on, hope I finish my race, uh And I just wanna hear Him say "Well done" How I feel right now? Well, done Ain't nobody askin' me how I'm doin' They just like, "Ayo, where the next album?" Here it is, honest to God, that's all I can be They want the old Andy, girl, don't tempt me And as of late, I'm lookin' into therapy Forget scarin' other rappers, man I'm scared of me 'Cause mental health issues in my family tree My grandmother died of Alzheimer's Last time I see her, yo, she ain't even remember me I gotta wonder if the same ends meant for me, yeah Went through depression in December 2016, the worst year I could remember I was sittin' at the table with my wife, started weepin' Tears fallin' down my face, I ain't even know the reason, started readin' Learned it's my body's way of releasin' Stress that I been carryin' over these seasons, uh And in my darkest time, friends are what I needed But I hadn't sown there so wasn't much for me to really reap in Losin' faith in things that I once believed in Even myself, I think Satan sent his illest demons Must be doin' somethin' right to get this opposition Meanin' I should go the hardest when I feel like quitin' God, kill me if I ever start mixin' Personal ambition and call it a righteous mission 'Cause from a distance, most people couldn't tell the difference That's the thing that make me ashamed to say I'm Christian God, they lyin' on your name on the television, uh They Benny Hinn gettin' Benjamin's, uh And, nah, I get it, why most hate religion 'Cause division and oppression is what Ben depicted But two choices young man, make a decision Throw your hands up and say "Forget it" Or be the difference Four minutes of sharin' how I felt Honest with y'all 'cause now I'm bein' honest with myself [Outro] Honest moments How often do we have 'em? Am I allowed to have one? (Ayy, yeah) 'Cause we go live with the highlights We go silent with the pain We don't tell nobody 'Cause we don't want no shame But if you only knew If you only knew Everyone you scared to let down Don't you know they're scared like, like, like you