Exulansis

Lyrics

Listen to me They always told me since the day that I was born: "Love would kill me" "Friends would fail me" That's what they tell me That's what I tell myself But I don't want to I've been stuck in my mind Round and round like it's cycles of laundry Wrinkle release all my hopes and you know it's all just for me to Repeat these cycles I'm not in control That's what they call a persona switch And it's personal And it's purposeful They have a plan for me Brick to the wall And that's not all I'm truly, sorry to all Just had to go out and hang out my story For y'all Interpret it, Genius Y'all didn't catch a clue Sleepovers: dead Parties are gone I'm missing the ocean, Kerry, and friends Weight down my hopes like I'm tied down to lead I am Saul, I am sorry Amalekites knock at your door like the voices in here, in my head Knock at my sanity Knots in my stomach, again Tap away at the dike and the flood'll soon follow See you tomorrow: that's what I say Sleep off my problems but I ain't tired But I ain't tired, no Feel like I'm Holden onto What's left, and Sunny's left Things are looking much darker What's that? You want to be a part of my life? Watchu mean, this train wreck? It's a one-way ticket to getting your heart broken And your love bashed in And your streaks on end And my sweater you like Back to my closet This same pain, I cause it I wish I knew how I could stop it Did you catch that? Fingerprints, body in the back of, trunk of, the hatchback That new Snap girl Did you match that? Distraction Did you catch that? Nowhere to turn Cause I burnt this mask off And these bridges down... a long time ago Now we out here... finish what's left Controlled burn