Lyrics

[Verse 1] Fourteen years, thirty minutes Fifteen seconds I've held this grudge Eleven songs, four full journals Thoughts of punishmentI'veexpended [Verse 2] Not in contact,not a letter Such communication, telepathic You've beenvilified, used as fodder You deserve a piece of every record [Pre-Chorus 1] Butwho'sithurting now? Who's theone that's stuck? Andwho's it torturing now With an antique knot in her stomach? [Chorus] I wanna be big and let go Of this grudge that's grown old All this time I've not known How to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved Clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us [Verse 3] Like an abandoned house, dusty covered Furniture, still intact If I visit it now, do I simply re-live it? Somehow gratuitous [Pre-Chorus 2] But who's still aching now? Who's tired of her own voice? Who is it weighing down With no gift from time of said healing? [Chorus] I wanna be big and let go Of this grudge that's grown old All this time I've not known How to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved Clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us [Bridge] Maybe as I cut the cord Veils will lift from my eyes Maybe as I lay this to rest Dead weight off my shoulders to rise [Verse 4] Here I sit much determined Ever ill-equipped to draw this curtain How this has entertained, validated And has served me greatly, ever the victim [Pre-Chorus 3] But who's done whining now? Who's ready to put down? This load I've carried longer Than I had cared to remember [Chorus] I wanna be big and let go Of this grudge that's grown old All this time I've not known How to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved Clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us I wanna be big and let go Of this grudge that's grown old For the life of me I've not known How to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved Clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us