Last Last Fall

Lyrics

[Hook] I threw my old notebooks in the trash Don't want to turn that blue check into cash So here comes the last hit, make it last Make it last Make it last I'm tryna' figure out how you can love me When I don't even love myself baby But if you want to find out, then we can see We can see We can see [Verse 1] When I first met you, I hit that panic button I know that upsets you, I wasn't capable of love But really I was not prepared to be presentable I hated myself And I knew that I could love you from the day you were dealt It's like we take the perfect day off the shelf The only thing that stop me was that knowledge itself Talkin' bout overnight oatmeal, take you out, In-N-Out Small pockets, big promises, and bigger self doubt Coulda' sworn that I was too foregone for someone like you A sworn worn with big hearts, sharp, in sepia tone Made a promise on my mattress I'm afford to adore you That's a ripple on my soul to difficult to ignore Had to open up my core, as to shut doors Standing in a quiet room young and corrupted, bug eyed and buggin' Tuggin' strings just to hear notes, pianos, and my chest ringing out for the day that I croak, then I'll know [Hook] I threw my old notebooks in the trash Don't want to turn that blue check into cash So here comes the last hit, make it last Make it last Make it last I'm tryna' figure out how you can love me When I don't even love myself baby But if you want to find out, then we can see We can see We can see [Verse 2] I haven't been outside the crib since Christmas, chin checking myself myself Rubbernecking, no flexin', just remembering my daddy's a Texan Need a break from these Best Westerns, I've been blessed with the room discretion Looking for a therapist, very apparent I'm scared of myself In the nation of these white terrorists, is it too late? I need to spread the love or get tossed off this earth like a discus Working my mental fitness, she taught me how to love myself To begin this, but I can't pretend it's not hard to keep pretendin' Without her don't know if these wheels will keep spinning, but new beginnings and new ends It took awhile to be a man, but dammit if that man didn't sit me Down and do to me what he damn well can, but I'mma sit you Down and do with us till I can stand Because I love you and I'm ready for you Damn [Hook 2x] I threw my old notebooks in the trash Don't want to turn that blue check into cash So here comes the last hit, make it last Make it last Make it last I'm tryna' figure out how you can love me When I don't even love myself baby But if you want to find out, then we can see We can see We can see