nests&Fractures

Song Meaning

The lyrics paint a picture of profound dissociation and a struggle for self-awareness. The opening lines, "Every single day / My eyes are made of clay / Am I here to stay? / Oh I'm not here today," establish a sense of detachment from reality, as if the narrator's very perception is fragile and impermanent. This is immediately followed by a plea for mental presence: "Tell my mind just stay awake." The contrast between the narrator's internal feeling of absence and the external world's expectation of presence creates a palpable tension. The song grapples with a deep-seated fear of succumbing to an overwhelming internal or external force, repeatedly asserting "No I'm not going under." Yet, this assertion is immediately qualified by "Its you," suggesting that the source of this potential downfall is tied to another person. This creates a complex dynamic where the narrator's survival seems dependent on, or threatened by, someone else, blurring the lines between external influence and internal struggle. The repeated phrase, "Every time you wake / Every ocean break," links the external world's events to the narrator's own precarious state. A striking image of self-rejection appears with "Every time I wash / I recoil in dread / I dont wanna be / Who I thought I was / Cut the crimson out the bed." This visceral reaction suggests a desire to purge a past self or a deeply ingrained identity that is now causing immense distress. The imagery of "crimson out the bed" hints at a need to remove something painful or perhaps even violent from one's intimate space. The lyrics then shift to a more communal feeling with "They wash over you / They wash over us / Leaves are falling over me," indicating that this struggle, while personal, might be shared or observed by others. The core of the song's emotional weight lies in the feeling of being unseen and unheard, encapsulated by "And what is there to do / When no one knows you're here? / No one knows the silence that you've had to hold." This isolation is compounded by the physical sensation of obscured breathing: "The opaque airways hide my fear." The metaphor of being "Nested inside your home" suggests a feeling of being trapped or sheltered in a way that is both comforting and confining, especially when paired with the uncertainty of "You just don't know where to go." Ultimately, the repeated affirmations of "You're not going under" and "We're not going under" offer a fragile hope, suggesting a shared resilience or a determined effort to resist being overwhelmed, even amidst profound internal conflict.