Lyrics

September Just wanting it to end Remember The way you watched me When I said I could never be what you expected I'd rather be dead September Losing friends You used to say I had to figure out my own truth I could never see it through But when I got home from the hospital I knew exactly what to do Forever Best friends just like we always said Frightened girls just trying to live life outside their heads But then your patience wore too thin and I could not pretend By November we never spoke again When we met I'd already given up Shitty punk and black label as if it was enough Caught in the uncertainty of blood Confusing gentleness at last with love Together We'd make it out alive, we said Beacons shining bright across the internet Plans were tentatively made But there were rifts we couldn't mend Ever wondering if we could last as friends Moving twice a year and never looking back Wondering if this is all I'll ever have Counting change for food and thinking day by day Tried to cross the border to see you but got turned away "What does it mean?" "I'm sorry." I think about the way we caused each other so much pain And my obsession with always needing an escape But even when things got so bad I thought I'd run away There was a comfort knowing things would never be the same