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[Intro] Years at home Years at home Years at home, I have nothing to show for Years at home Years at home Years at home, I have nothing to show for [Verse 1: 8485] You know I can heal in a weekend I just always think I'm still bleeding and I'm so bored Numb skin grows over sores I don't know what I want anymore You can stay where you are in my head As a place for the blame when I'm feelin' pathetic I don't know who the fuck I'd have been If I could ever forget, I could ever forget it [Pre-Hook: 8485] People give me love, I can feel it, but it's hard now I don't need to fuck I just need to let my guard down Stay, it's so safe underground But it's cold and I'm just getting old, yeah I'm just getting older [Hook: 8485] I'm the emergency contact I want the urgency all back I'm your emergency contact I want the urge, I want my agency I'm the emergency contact I want the urgency all back I'm your emergency contact I want the urge, I want my- [Verse 2: blackwinterwells & blackwinterwells & 8485] Smoking packs on my own Hope you never call my phone Hope it hurts being gone 'Cause I hate you now, you know Acting different, I know So pathetic, I know But I'd rather be limping than dead in the snow Now I can't tolerate any more of you (of you) [Outro: 8485] I might go and fuck my life up on purpose Coming down, I don't know if I deserve it Self-preserve 'cause I'm nervous I kinda miss feeling sick on the surface Years at home, I have nothing to show for Lose control when the crisis is over I just ache 'cause it's something I can write about I just stayed for somebody I could cry about