self destruction

Lyrics

[Intro] Huh (Uh, uh) Ever since you left got self destruction on my mind Huh, uh-huh, tsk (Yeah) Ever since you— (Uh-huh, okay, uh-huh) [Chorus] Ever since you left got self destruction on my mind (My mind) I wake up and pop a seal, fall back asleep and pray I'll die (Die) Think I might be dead already, open casket for the guys Know my mama praying for me, she don't know I'm not alive, hah In a room with like a hundred people, I still feel alone I think I done popped a hundred pills, I think I'm too far gone (Gone) I'ma show 'em how I die, show it off, put on a show Let 'em watch me fall apart until therе's nothing left but bones [Verse] You broke my hеart, girl, Xans got me passed out Fit cost like ten, ho, no we can't match, bruh (We can't match) They want me dead, ho, just keep the casket open She still on my mind, I can't move past her (Ooh) Cheated on my new bitch, she don't matter like you I'm so dead I don't even eat, I treat the Xans like it's food (Yeah) I got cuts all on my wrist, mom said, "I'm worried 'bout you" She don't know about the drugs, she don't know that her son doomed Every time I close my eyes the thoughts come back Two pills don't do nothin' no more, I need more Xans Two sluts at the crib, do anything, tell that whore, "Dance" Yeah, I like this lifestyle, but I miss holdin' your hand Got you flowers and all, I thought you was the one Since that day that you left (Left), ain't been sober, not once I got tats on my arms, just to cover the cuts (Uh) Every day I'm in hell, pop a pill, I'm in love (Aah) [Pre-Chorus] It's so many things I'd tell you if I could If I keep living like this, my name gon' end up on a tomb All my brothers be on drugs, I'm still the highest in the room If you gave me one more chance, I'd quit the drugs, all just for you [Chorus] Ever since you left got self destruction on my mind (On my mind) I wake up and pop a seal, fall back asleep and pray I'll die (Die) Think I might be dead already, open casket for the guys (Huh) Know my mama praying for me, she don't know I'm not alive (Alive) In a room with like a hundred people, I still feel alone I think I done popped a hundred pills, I think I'm too far gone I'ma show 'em how I die, show it off, put on a show Let 'em watch me fall apart until there's nothing left but bones (Uh-huh)