y does this happen 2 me ._.

Song Meaning

The narrator finds himself in a state of bewildered isolation, likening himself to a solitary gnome. He’s taken drastic action, deleting shared memories from a partner’s phone, a move that seems to stem from a profound internal fracture. The partner is described with a jarring, almost surreal image – "transparent, like a green home" – suggesting a lack of substance or perhaps a deceptive nature that leads to the narrator's mental and physical breakdown. This experience is explicitly labeled as "disassociation," the force that perpetuates his solitude.