Lyrics

I often don't know what I'm feeling Cause emotions don't seem so appealing After years of trials Inspired not by my own errors but Deception, debasement and terror Exes who cope just to kill A few years ago I bought a handgun Cause the CHAZ made me feel I should have one I was there for two weeks Working graveyard shift on the borders Revolution is it's own reward, or so i was told, I just moved forward Then came years of dissociative addiction Ketamine, nitrous, 3-MEO-PCP & 2-FDCK I zoomed so far outside the planet That forgеtting four suicides was painless Becausе friends don't exist in the hole So go ahead and spread that I'm dangerous Go ahead and tell them I kidnap, I rape and I kill, pick any lie you want Cause nothing that you ever say or do Will ever be worse than relearning to Use toilets and eat solid food Nails in my sarcophagus My blown-out esophagus Frozen lungs and frostbitten fingers Gabapentin, alcohol LSD and adderall Turns out I've got baggage after all Countless nights with zero sleep Everyone says I'm a creep Hey tranny, can you relate to me? like a Gunshot in a crowded mall From the women's bathroom stall There's no use in trying after all There's a perpetual disorder inside girls with field recorders We don't care and we don't know We'll just plant ourselves and hope we grow up, but How much longer are you willing to pretend That you don't wanna catch a load in the rear end from Some girl who insists you call her "mommy"? It's obvious, at least to me Mammals have a tendency To generate sexual fantasy based on dynamics of the family But the more that you treat it like a big taboo The more people are going to Submit, dominate, and crave abuse Living for this thing that bothers you Quit while you're ahead This was always our new normal now Quit while you're ahead