Closer

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Seth Sentry] Yo At all times now, I hear the darkness callin' Yeah, it's closer than it was and I just can't ignore it So this is paranoia where every finger's pointed Where everything looks haunted, yeah, so this is madness for ya Is crazy somethin' a man is born with? Or just some marijuana or the acid talkin' Or the alcoholic in me, shit, I wish I had The answers for 'em but all I know is that it has its claws in And I just can't avoid it, now every shadow Is a tar pit boilin' over, it's so close, I feel my back is cornered And if I had a small wish, I wish I had of fought it But now it's too late, 'cause everything's too damn distorted Yeah, man, I wish I knew what started all this (Yeah) I need some help but, yo, I can't afford it Nah, fuck your help, I need a lighter now to spark a joint [?] I'm fadin' away to the same place that Drapht was fallin' Seth is gone, death a storm, this the calm before it I'm just tryna summon the courage to bite the bullet (Do it) The walls are talkin', I swear to God, this apartment's haunted Could all this be paranormal? (Nah, this is madness for you) And so it goes without sayin' this is my last recordin' 'Cause if you're hearin' this now it means I must have done it First off, I really need to tell you just how much I'm sorry I know that the news of my death was gruesome and hard to stomach I'm sorry too for those who end up in the bathroom scrubbin' Up the mess, I guess I was clumsy, this shit was far too bloody Plus the blade, it was blunt and it couldn't cut me properly I was in such a hurry, it's close and I can't outrun it Goodbye [Verse 2: 360] Uh, ever since a kid I felt this way The black sheep, I can never rid myself of hate And some'll say that it's a mental disease Well, I just pray that I can make it to the end of the week It's like I'll only find happiness when dead or asleep They say in time it'll get better for me but it forever repeats It's like I'm on the search to find my inner peace And the fact, I know it's never there is killin' me 'Cause I'll be honest, I'm tryna make it work It's all I can think about but it's likely to make it worse And it hurts, am I positive? No, I just wanted to go It's like I'm trapped in my mind and I'm not lettin' go They try to help me but I won't let 'em touch me Until you've been in my shoes, don't ever judge me The only thing that ever seems to excite me Is the thought of me leavin' this life, it's the demon inside me It screams to release and it needs To be leavin', I make myself bleed just to see him Don't be scared, it doesn't hurt while I bleed I live in hell, if you go and search, you'll find me I don't think this world and this earth's what I need And I don't think this place is for a person like me Is that really such a bad thing? And people always point fingers but don't really understand him I need to chill, I wanna leave here, serious I'm bein' real, I don't wanna be here, period Hey, yo, fuck it, my life's hell, I hate it Ninety-nine per cent of my life's dealt with anger See, I just wanna get a shotty, go and end it properly Doin' everybody and myself a favour And they say that your life's what you make it I didn't ask for my own life but I'll take it