TRAUMA

Lyrics

[Verse 1: 350] Anxiety's like a leaf on a tree, it comes and it goes Says bye for a season until it blooms and it grows Trauma's like the root from the seed, it grips and it holds You can never just rip it out, it leaves a scar in your soul People laugh at pigmentations, color the leaves that'll grow Some days I'm very yellow, orange next time I show I didn't pick the type of leaf I got, I meet the crop, I'm dealt, a lot I felt I'm often in hell, I'm done with myself I'm living in jail, my life in a cell, I fight with the devil, I been a rebel Hyping thе self, chasing the wealth, what do I do? That's what I been taught Whеn I was in school, they told me to choose career that I'll pay, take me away Not what I want, at least I'll be safe, I'll never be happy, at least I'll be paid Yuh, never could finish my lessons, uh I was so caught in depression, uh I would be failing my classes, making me feel like I'll always be less than What family wanted, always feel like an opponent They just want all these degrees, Uncle told me that I'd blown it Whoever's in your garden, they'll be planting seeds Some of bitterness, jealousy, some of grief Some people forced their way around the meadow Planting seeds of harm, you never know until the trees around you bleed, yuh [Interlude] I've always been anxious, I mean You know, the hardest part was just feeling so helpless, like, nothing we could do would really help [Verse 2: 350] They told me, "Run back" There's no other way to get my trust back I just gave my all and you gave none back I always thought that I would be above that What's the point of fam if you don't love back? That's the truth and you don't hear me Disagree, you don't come near me So much hurt inside my head I've had a problem thinking clearly So much trauma I ain't deal with Now, it's coming out unwillingly Don't think y'all been feeling me I'm lost, ain't no one searching around to come take care of me Adolescence, I had learned some lessons Like you live alone, you die alone and that's depressing When they knock you to the ground, that's when you see blessings Lord [Outro] Something in the back of your head saying, "Don't talk about it People don't talk about it" When you talk about it, the less people feel alone