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[part 1, Valentines Grinch] Might just be the Grinch cause I'll steal your heart Like gifts then break it All my vibes I'm faking Bouncing off you because I'm vacant Wish I could've changed it Honestly wish I could've changed me When I try I always start aching Hands feeling shaky Panic from the trust then I have to zip it up To keep myself safe To keep myself rot I don't know who I am anymore I can't text or call but I'll try and I might just fucking Get up Dust myself off Try so we can keep going Bring flowers with my soul to your doorstep Spill my guts on the floor let me be sad My life is a chore and that is that I only want you more which means that If I can't feel for me then I can't feel for you And it only hurts becausе I wanna love you But I can't and I don't know why God I wish I could fucking cry fuck Wish I could change the past If I'm rеally kinda being brash I've been backstabbed By lovers and loved ones Who all lied alike all my life Fuck I might Be the grinch cause I'll steal your heart Like gifts then break it No matter how pretty How silly How fucking lovely you are to me We won't make it [Part 2, ALONE] Kill yourself Cut yourself Kill yourself Cut yourself Kill yourself Cut yourself Kill yourself Cut yourself Kill yourself Cut yourself Kill yourself Cut yourself Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so alone I Feel so Alone (está muy oscuro aquí) What the hell is wrong with me I feel so lost, so who is me? I feel so empty in my mind I want to take it out and die Feel so alone these nights I feel like I never even lived to begin Who am I? I should end it What do you want from me I can never make you happy I'm sorry but it's all I can be It's who I am, not sorry Manipulate me, watch me fall into the creek I know you hate me So watch how hateful I can be You are worth nothing Fuck you You are with nothing Fuck you You are worth nothing Fuck you You are worth nothing Fuck you You are worth nothing Fuck you You are worth nothing Fuck you You are worth nothing Fuck you You are worth nothing Fuck you [Part 3, ALONE PT 3] Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone I am alone I am alone Alone Alone Alone Alone alone We live our lives alone and We will all die alone and We live our lives we're all alone Alone, alone We're all alone We're all alone We're all alone We're all alone We're all alone We're all alone Alone, alone, alone Alone Alone Alone Alone we're all alone Alone Alone [Part 4, ALONE pt 4] I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't feel this pain anymore I now feel insane more and more I take this blade to my skin And I bleed I bleed I can't feel the sways of love anymore The ghost never comes to my brain anymore I deserve to be alone Alone There's no reason to think anymore Give in take a drink then drink more and more Can't help but feel I've been here before alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone Alone (Millions are dead because you lied) (My friends are dead because you lied) (You need to apologize, apologize) [Part 5, Sleep Deprivation] Yeah, yeah, yeah I'm dead like death my nigga Can't feel my chest or rest my nigga (fuck) I really wanna think less my nigga Wishing life was more painless my nigga (fuck) Feel like my heart is cold Feel like I should be bones I feel like my soul is old my nigga But this is the path I chose Can't remember why I'm still pathing streets I roam They say there's no place like home But any place feels more like home than home I think I need a new place to go I think I need a new home Think I need to find new bros Maybe I should buy new clothes Maybe I should end it all Maybe I should throw my phone Fuck I can't think right And honestly I can't sleep at night No use in putting up a fucking fight No point to life if we fucking die They don't care if you fucking cry They don't care if I suicide It don't affect them so really They couldn't even care for my fucking life You only worth what you make You only worth what they think You only worth feeling hate You only feel what they say You only are what you think They're clouding your mind so you sink Deeper into the pits of the fucking drink Till you become pissed and you hate And the cycle repeats every fucking day "Like I can feel myself regress into a different mindset..." "Like being more depressed..." "And it's not you that makes me depressed it's Just I fully give into the feeling of hopelessness again..." "I feel like after that convo we had till it was like 5AM for me..." "Wasn't the current me..." "I don't even know bro I want you in my circle but I can't keep you in it..." "If i start changing back Into the mindset That Keeps me from improving how I want" [part 6, Leave me alone, Edited (cover of: All You Need To Know)] Just wanted to record a quick message Just to show that I don't give a fuck about any of these niggas I don't give a fuck about none of you niggas I don't give a fuck about any of you bitches I'm on my own I said I'm on my own I don't give a fuck I don't give a fuck Yeah yeah [Instrumental] Now you know about me So leave me the fuck alone and never talk to me again All y'all niggas bitch ass niggas Keep me the fuck away [Part 7, I left my soul in Vegas] My neck feel strain My head is spinning Thinking too much bitch I'm overloading off the stains Like bloody paints Can't pretend my canvas ain't been the same Dinner plate Eating truth up with my doubts On the side Sike I lied I ain't ate since I ain't happy with my life She's fucking up my seems (wait fuck) Ancient thoughts that screams (why) All my friends are fake (die) I could die right now (I will) They won't make a sound (no) Pages wrote of how (no) I've been feeling now (no) I lay you to sleep with me inside your dreams Replaced and killed again Rebound then left again Get clean then cut again Be mean and die again Replaced and killed again Rebound then left again Get clean then cut again Be mean and die again I can't trust none of you fuckers Ima die make sure you outed as busters Blood of my soul on your hands Skin moldy black I rot as I stand I can't trust none of you fuckers Ima die make sure you outed as busters Blood of my soul on your hands Skin moldy black I rot as I stand "I already feel like shit from these past two weeks." "With my relationship coming to and end School being stressful And people straining the last bit of sanity I have left..." "I don't know what to do anymore..." "I don't wanna die but I feel like it's all I have left to choose..." "My heart aches so bad my arms are going numb And I'm starting to feel nothing again" [Part 8, Im starting to give up] So why do I try I just fucking hate my life All the stars in the sky Make me feel like a lie So why do I try I can't even go outside She has her hands gripped tight My soul fades from my eyes From my eyes Why do I try anymore I just wanna die some more All the hope That she gives me makes my eyes sore I can't sleep in the night watch the timing soar I keep my wrist like a tally to add up the score So why do I try I just fucking hate my life All the stars in the sky make me feel like a lie I can't even go outside She has her hands gripped tight "I tried to kill my emotions But was too consumed by them to do so..." "And just said fuck it Figured I'd probably get another chance..." "And then thought about How the same thing will probably happen again and loop over" [Part 9, Yellow & Black Hearts 2: Forgotten] Yellows back but Black seems lost Black cut back to days when he was gone Life is changing no one can stop We'll be forgotten like those of old Building of grass and house of mold The winds grows strong and the waves are bold Don't cry now there's no point in being sad Trees that sway like words in the breeze Nothing matters not even the bees "Can't make anyone happy I'm selfish and useless..." "And also a terrible friend, girlfriend, daughter Sister everything I leave people at their worst..." Yellow cut back from the wrist to the elbow Black cocked back and sent himself to hell oh We'll be forgotten like those of old Buildings of grass and house of mold "Cause whenever I do something My dads first instinct is to take everything away from me" [Part 10, I hate myself.] Devils eye Devils eye Mmm-Mmm Mmm-Mmm I'm married to the devil bitch keep satan on my fucking ring Got demons strapped up on my wrist they never have abandoned me This life a loan and happiness is just inside your fantasy Let truth seep in and realize just how fucked up life can really be How fucked up life can really be All you do is you assume that you is who's way better than me Destiny, empathy we all die eventually Why should I cry loss of life when we all die eventually Devils eye Devils eye Mmm-Mmm Mmm-Mmm Married to the devil bitch keep satan on my fucking ring Demons stay strapped to my wrist they'll never ever abandon me Cause when there's no one left and knowing You can't trust your family You turn inward cause you yourself yeah you can never ever leave But what happens when that's not safe anymore What happens when you're not safe anymore What happens when trying to stay becomes a chore What happens when the demons preach to kill yourself more And then the end will come and you will repeat the cycle once more Repeat it all once more [Part 11, I will do anything however heinous if it will come fill up the hole where my pain is] Manipulate Amputate Waste away Such a mistake I feel emotions of missing attention Mistaken for remnants of missing affection Try all you'd like but results are resentment Used like some new shoes I'm better off not mentioned I say I love you and I really mean it But then I miss treat you I feel like a demon I lie and say that I'm not gonna leave And I hope you feel comfort inside my new pretense A cannibal eating away all my feelings I'll make you just like me so you might get eaten I will do anything however heinous If it will come fill up the hole where my pain is I'm selfish and useless and play like the victim I'm horrid, unloyal my actions are sickness (My actions are sickness) I wish I could change the way that I was I wish I knew for sure this was love I wish I could stay with you for the rest of your life But chances are we won't be talking by the end of tonight God I'm a fuck up man why do I do this I could end it all now this pipe in my right hand I wanted to tell you that I'm truely sorry I'm toxic and shitty I'll blow my head off me Put an end to my life so you'll forgive me Put the thought in a song so I keep kicking I need some help I need me some therapy I don't feel safe to be honest, I'm scared of me To be honest, I'm scared of me To be honest, I'm scared of me To be honest, I'm scared of me I don't feel safe to be honest, I'm scared of me To be honest, I'm scared of me To be honest, I'm scared of me To be honest, I'm scared of me To be honest, I'm scared of me [Part 12, Loona.Mp3] "I can smile when I'm around people But alone I just feel empty you know?" "I don't really feel anything like all my emotions is gone" "And I have nothing to feel Like if I can feel anything I feel numb" "I don't know what to do to help it either" "I don't wanna talk to family or friends Because I don't want them to worry" "But if I don't talk to anyone How am I gonna get rid of the feeling?" "I don't know if getting a girlfriend will help me" "I just hate on others people happiness Because me myself, am not happy" I push my head way past the line I can't control what is mine My life has crumbled and it died So why am I what's left alive If I should fail like I've always done Then what's the point I'm the useless one You sit with me and you hear my plead You're the only one concerned if I bleed So I'll break me down and you'll come with me On a trip through my old memories And through the fall we'll have it all You'll take a dive into my seems Together we part my mental sea And when you see that enemy That pours daunting thoughts back into me I'm sure you'll leave And you'll always tell me That I never really meant anything at all And everything's always been my fault And I'll lock me down So no one can see that I've become everyone's enemy [Part 13, Self Destruct] All you need to stop it Bitch dropping When I cock Pop my head No options Gone bitch I'm gone bitch Stop it can't stop it I'm settled bitch Grip my kettle bitch burry me with all my metals bitch Please stop it you can drop it You don't really care You don't think it's fair Options? What options Stomping thoughts stomping Death knocking He wants in not gonna stop him I'm gone in Lavender town fit in with the crowd Wear a crown topped with big regrets Better yet bring some cigarettes We'll keep further rotting over Till it start again Fourth leaf clover I'm a hoper that one day I'll resurrect Bum, bum, bum, bum blow my brains out Pink like gum gum Take my pain out Fade away into the night I follow the light Alister acts as my guide He's my favorite guy Die, I have really died Nothing left inside My demise Cause of suicide I can't enjoy life No goodbyes I hope I weigh you down I hope you break inside Know that I Hope you cry From the afterlife More need I say no more Life is just a chore Bored Out my mind blood leaking from my thighs Signs of future actions ignored by the like Eighty percent I join with gleam in eyes Note on the floor just so you can know why Rest inside the ground I won't go to sky Lavender town is for children like I Lavender town is for children like I After all the ghost trainer is here to transport ghost type Pokémon Ghost type Pokémon? No one else? Only someone like me [Part 14, Ecstasy] Out of the dark he found a road To quietly walk alone Out of the days he learned to know the call comes after the Out of the dark he found a road To quietly walk alone Out of the days he learned to know the call comes after the Out of the dark he found a road To quietly walk alone Out of the days he learned to know the call comes after the storm Sit back and watch the rain Breath out before tomorrow Slow down before you break and you're cast aside Open my eyes man why am I here Everyday I'm living in fear My eyes solid grey my souls fades away no love for my peers (Why) No love for myself Main pain to my health I'm failing my grades with no growth in my wealth I've rotten away Brain trapped in decay Might sink in the bay Make my pain disappear Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why (why, WHY) Why, (why, WHY) Out of the dark you found a road To quietly walk alone Out of the days you learned to know The calm comes after the storm Out of the dark you found a road To quietly walk alone Out of the days you learned to know The calm comes after the storm Like literally her birthday, it's so weird And like I've just been like messaging everyone I don't know why Molly gets me like I don't know Like your feelings come out You tend to like you catch up It's like special feelings when you're on molly I guess yeah I guess I don't know anyways [Part 15, I h8 (f) U/ I HATE YOU] Excuses, excuses I got to know The truth and the loose ends you won't unfold The memories what you said inside my skull Would you even care if my pulse had gone cold The longest page inside my death note Dedicated to a fucking dead hoe You're living and breathing and loving your life And I'm sitting here cutting with tears in my eyes I don't want you back inside of my life I don't want you to know who I decide to be I don't want you to know anything about me Cause I fucking hate you Cause I fucking hate you Cause I fucking hate you